Haven't blogged for a while

As the title suggests, I haven't blogged for a while. Don't know exactly why I'm blogging now... Actually, I do know. I need to offload. Get my frustrations out. Really, I'd like to shout out my frustrations, however, I'll probably be in breach of the peace, and some police officer will read me the riot act.

My first frustration is my inability to write. Addiction, the sequel to Secret Eyes, is only 1200 words long and not even past the first chapter stage. Either I don't want to get into my character's heads, or I can't. I suspect it's the former. I don't want to get into California and Anakin's heads because I really can't be bothered. This is due to my second frustration.

My second frustration is sales for Undercover Desires are, quite honestly, simply dreadful. I'm still in my very dark place, my severe depression rendering me useless and exhausted, but even so, I put everything I had into Undercover Desires, and I finished it. I wrote those two little words - The End. I really thought this was it, this was the book that would skyrocket. How wrong was I. That's the last time, and only time, I will be optimistic. I've always been a pessimist, and I'm going to stay that way from now on. Low sales aren't exactly encouraging me to continue with my writing. I mean, come on, why should I? I know. I know. I'm a moaning so-and-so. I know I should be grateful for being published in the first place. And I am. Really I am. I know friends who have degrees in writing and yet cannot find a publisher. And yet, the almost non-existent sales are seriously pissing me off. I want to yell at readers, why aren't you reading my book? Why are they choosing other authors? What's wrong with me? But I don't. I'm thankful for any sale, and hold any reader, wherever they are on the earth, who reads my books in very high regards.

My third frustration is, of course, my severe depression. It really sucks. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Not that I have any. Well, I don't think so. I'm taking medication that makes me incredibly tired. Not good either. I can't win, can I? I sincerely hope my doctor's suggestion of reducing the dosage will combat the tiredness but will still lift my mood into a lighter place. God, I hope so.

And that concludes my blog... Actually, it should be rant, for now. When will I blog again? Who knows.

Undercover Desires

Undercover Desires is now available to pre-order from www.bookstrand.com/undercover-desires. There is a 15% discount until midnight CST, February 20th.

Release date is February 13th.

This will probably be my last book published for a while. My severe depression has really wiped out my interest in everything, including writing.

For those who buy this book, I hope you enjoy Georgiana and Reed's journey. I would be grateful for any reviews.